It doesn’t help that that was a seriously awkward conversation. Especially since I went in there yesterday to do some grocery shopping and rant into the same manager who answered the phone. What do you even say when your mental health is all out of whack? I mean that’s not something you tell your employer right off the bat is it?
Me: I can’t make it in today, I’m sorry it such short notice
Him: Oh, that’s okay, are you not feeling well?
Me: Err.. yeah
I just can’t today. Oh my gosh.
Worst anxiety/(depression?) attack of my life. I can’t stop crying and shaking. I don’t even know why this is happening. I feel so anxious and dysfunctional today. I called into work even though I start in 30 minutes cuz I can’t seem to pull myself together today. All I could think about in the shower this morning was ways to hurt myself so I can get back in my comfort zone. I had the water way too hot, pulled my hair too hard, and hoped the razor would slip. ugh.
I haven’t had a day like this in sooooo long. I guess you have to take a step back eventually..
Some kind words or a prayer to get me through today would be greatly appreciated.
At the airport picking up my fiancé! Yay! I’m glad he got to go home and visit his daddy but, man, I missed him!
Having a bad day.
I’m so done with Washington. I love my family but I cannot wait to move out. I’m tired of being treated like I’m 15 again. I’m tired of feeling forgotten or disprespected.
I don’t know why, I’m super emotional, and now I’m crying at everything. I just want to eat shitty food, but I’m having a self esteem crisis. Blah.
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